Dear Diary

Warning: This may sound like gossiping.

I'm getting the information from one side and I'm letting them on the other. Cos receiving information on VilleValoFanpage is a source of all my posts in this blog and writing about what I read there is kinda like gossiping. And it's really not about laughing at some people, I don't do that. But, I am always surprised by the way people are thinking.

So, maybe this writing should be like a diary and maybe then it would be normal to write down my thoughts about what I see and read. So, here I go:

Dear Diary,

VilleValoFanpage is a great fun and enjoyment. I get to know people every day and it's a pleasure to know that Ville's fans are on one place - my place :) But here is a comment I received and I was so surprised when I read it, that I just couldn't stop laughing. It sounds cruel, I know. But... just read this:

"Sorry, what am I thinking, this is Ville Valo Fanpage and whoever is sending me the comments from this page, thank you for that, I appreciate it, but I would rather get comments from Ville Valo himself, guess I am asking for too much, have a good day"

I think words are unnecessary. This comment rocks! Totally! Just the way the comment is written is.... I don't know. Funny? or Stupid? or at some point Absurd? or maybe once again, I took things seriously and who knows... maybe this comment is meant to be pure humor? What's the next thing I will read?

Truly Yours,

Suomigirl

Ville Valo is...

How many fans would Ville have if we would remove all those people who think he's "fucking sexy"?

Just to make it clear, VilleValoFanpage (www.myspace.com/villevalofanpage) is my page so I can set some rules: delete or reject friend requests from people who treat Ville as an object. Even though I'm totally against messages and comments with big letters "VILLE IS SO FUCKING HOT" or "Come into my arms I know you're the one for me" it is still just a fan page - a place every fan can join. I won't analyze what kind of fans are people on my site, but I do have my opinion about those comments. And even before I opened that page I've heard many things that don't have anything with Ville + Music, but rather involve Ville + His body.

And it bothers me. I don't look at Ville as a sex toy, nor I dream about him in any kind of way. I think he's a great person and a great musician. But since I opened VilleValoFanpage and not VilleValo-OnlyChosenFans-Page, I except all requests for friendship, but still I'm aware of everything that's written about him. And if those comments don't have anything to do with HIM music, don't expect any reply from me. That's all...

Ville Valo = Every woman's sexual satisfaction

Here are my thoughts I just couldn't skip this time. Hope I'll remember to mention them all.

So, last night was interview with Ville on Euro Rock Radio and it was my first time to listen radio over the internet and in the same time chat with people who were waiting for that famous hour when they will hear Ville's voice (even though the interview was pre-recorded). Crowd was getting bigger every minute and there were people all over the world. I didn't expect anything spectacular, but I was interested to hear what kind of questions did the fans ask considering that most of the private questions remained private and weren't asked which is one big "thank God for that", cos I can't imagine how many emails did Kelly receive containing "Ville, will you marry me?" :) What I liked the most is that Ville was in a good mood, very talkative and of course always philosophical :) On the scale from 1 to 5, I would give this interview grade 4.

Second thing I was very surprised on and I don't know why I keep surprising on things like this is that one girl (my guess) wanted to know does Ville cry. Well, from all the questions a man can ask I would never come up with the question like this. Don't see the point... Why? Why would someone want to know if Ville cries? Would it be a satisfaction just to know the answer (whatever the answer is)? And that's not all, when I entered Heartagram's board today I found out the topic called "Does Ville Valo cry?" I say he's a robot without feelings. Satisfied?

In addition to this private thing a man has his right on, I must also write down how was my reaction when I saw one question in a quiz on Facebook. Are you prepared? The question is: When has Ville lost his virginity? And then three answers were offered. Now, I know he mentioned that in one interview, and that means he freely speaks about it, but is that fact sooo important to be in a quiz? Is it a lesson we all must know if we are/want to be Ville's fans? And I thought we are all here cos we love his music. Boy, am I wrong... I forgot we all want his body and secrets... And tears, of course.

Next what I wanted to write is my first funny experience I had since I opened Ville Valo Fanpage which you can check on www.myspace.com/villevalofanpage. One girl (or was it a man behind it, I don't know) wrote me how she wants to get to know me better cos she's searching for a man of her life. Naturally I replied that it's only a fan page and not a private profile. Obviously she didn't understand it and continued talking/writing and put me a whole list of questions (and one interesting: What do you like in a man?) and finally when I slowly explained her that I'm not interested in any kind of online dating she quit bugging. Ville Valo - you drive women insane! And I must stress this out -> women all ages. So, not just teenagers, but even mothers. One big "wow" to that.

Never enough with surprises... here is the one I got today when I woke up. I sent a friend request to someone (I don't know if it is a group or a single man/woman) and that person sent me a message containing more than 20 questions to answer within 24hours if I want to be accepted. I don't have anything against answering that questions cos they are all about HIM. Some of them are general, some of them are about myself (like: what is my favorite album, or what would I ask Ville if I could meet him) and some of them are questions that I think only few people know. I would say - few completely loyal fans (no matter are they loyal to HIM or to Ville's body). And I felt really uncomfortable with that test or the game someone is playing, cos I feel I don't need to justify my HIM knowledge to anybody. Probably I took things way too seriously, but I'm not in school anymore and loving a band doesn't depend on what you know about them, but rather what you feel about them. So, I canceled the request and put a dot on I. After all, it's only a fan page - if you don't like it or don't want to be part of it, reject me. Simple as that.

And one final thing and final surprise, but this time very pleasant is that I'm very happy for opening this fan page, cos I receive many comments, I'm staying in touch with many people and recently I started receiving more and more photo comments, too. I hope it will stay this way and only go better, but right now I feel proud for creating this page and happy for doing what I do every day when I wake up and that is: respond to everyone's comments. I'm back on my path again :)

Small part of what I did in past few days (mainly about Ville Valo)

Writing blog kinda looks like talking to yourself if no one is reading :)

I've been searching for some good theme to write about, but it seems to me that it's all going way to deep in a philosophy so I rather skip all my thoughts. This one.. and this one... and definitely this one, too :D

But here's something I noticed and it really irritates me. I was searching for some people on MySpace (later I will tell why) and approximately 8 out of 10 people haven't been online for a year or more. So, if they decide not to visit their page anymore or to sign out, why don't they quit their account then? Or maybe MySpace should remove from public view all those profiles that haven't been visited for more than a year, but the owner of the profile can always claim his or her profile back and continue from where he/she/it stopped. No big deal. And Internet can practically do everything nowadays. Oh, well...

Anyway... MySpace... Yes... Since I was looking for some HIM fans and ran on the wall, I decided to open a new profile that will be Ville Valo Fanpage. So, if someone is out there and reads this, go check it out... I put lots of interesting stuff there. Here's the link: myspace.com/villevalofanpage. Now... Why Ville Valo? I don't know really. Beside he's a great and good looking singer I don't know why have I chosen to open this page NOW and not when I was into HIM music years and years before. And you know what? That music even NOW makes me shiver and those lyrics.... go deep in your soul, squeeze it and force it to cry. And after you find out that (if no one else) at least song understands you, you're able to continue with your life. So thank you Ville Valo for all that you've done :)

Now... why did I ever stop listening to HIM??? I didn't completely. I still have all their albums, I've been on their concert on Exit festival and I must say I am a loyal fan. So, I would describe it as a sleeping love. You know when you are deeply/madly in love and you break up with your darling, and then time passes by just enough so you don't think of him/her thaaaat much, and you finally think you're doing OK and you moved on, and what happens? You meet him/her on the street. Well, that's kinda that moment when you awake all those feelings you thought you don't feel anymore. It looks absurd now when I explain it in this way, but that's just how I feel about HIM songs. I stopped listening them cos I focused on other bands (but I knew always what was going on with Ville and Co.) and now when I touched what once was put aside to sleep, I can feel all that I felt before. Just like Celine Dion said: It's all coming back to me now :) Btw, I said before how my writing loses its point sometimes and thoughts just fly around and I end up stupid for writing all this, so don't look at me like that. :)

Oh and there is one more thing. Since I was being asked what is my favorite song from HIM, I must say that it's definitely In Joy and Sorrow, cos it's the song I fell in love with from the very first moment and it goes deep inside my soul. But it's not the first HIM song I heard. I started listening them from Deep Shadows and Brilliant Highlights album and the first song was Pretending, but I didn't like it and I was always changing the channel when it was on. What irony, right? :) And the song I cried on (one and only) is Gone with the sin. It was when I first watched the video and I just couldn't breathe... It was all... "WOW"

So, that's it... For now... It was nice writing all this :)

My first blog

Here I am trying to start my first blog on blogger.com and I guess the first time is always the hardest one. Well, I've already written some blogs on MySpace and I'm still exploring the whole thing about blogs, trying to let out my thoughts, and I don't know how well I am doing that, but I hope one day I will develop my writing skills to the satisfying level. Sometimes I come to the point where I ask myself what's the point in writing and even thinking about some things, and also sometimes when my mood changes I feel totally stupid for what I wrote. But I guess those feelings are OK to feel. I like to philosophize and discuss some things.... well, things that most people consider stupid or pointless, but that's OK, too cos I'm still learning who I am and what's my purpose in this world. Also I like to analyze things and people - why are they doing things this way and not some other way... it's like I want to get into their heads and see how they're thinking. So if I'm questioning some situation or people's behavior on my blog it's not judging, but rather exploring human mind which is always so mysterious :)

Well I guess that's all for my first time here. We... actually I will see where will this lead and hopefully I will be able to express my feelings, my point of view on some life situations and of course have fun while writing that. And one more thing - English is not my native language and of course there are mistakes, but it's not thaaaat bad :)